Sunday, August 7, 2011

where did the time go

Okay, so I had the best intentions of keeping a blog for our sweet B. Not only to show him one day, but to remember all these memories that seem to pass us by in a blink of an eye. As sad as it makes me to say that Bennett is 11 months old now, it also warms my heart to know that he is growing and learning each day. And as each day passes, he teaches me something else about life, love and happiness.

I guess it's okay this blog has been on the back burner for several months now. It just tells me the past few months have been all about family and friends, good times and soaking up every moment we possibly can, because before you know it, your baby you just brought home from the hospital is about to celebrate his first birthday.

Today was one of those days where I realized, once again, time flies. I know to some it doesn't seem like a huge deal, but for me it was bigger than huge... it was ginormous! Bennett has met the weight requirements (20 pounds by law, 24 pound big chunk) of a face-forward car seat for quite some time now, but just hadn't met the age requirement of 12 months. Now that he has a big boy car seat and enjoys looking out of the window, grabbing his toes, talking to me in the mirrors, throwing toys-sippy cups-pacis-lovey... He has not been tolerating facing backwards near as much since we retired the bucket car seat. So, today Jon was picking B up from Francy and JoJo's and had to switch the car seat back to our car (which is really annoying and time consuming, especially in the southern 100 degree weather). I asked him his thoughts on turning B around a few weeks early and he was on board! Shortly after my boys returned home and I wrapped up a client meeting, we hopped in the car and cruised to Shannon and John Hutton's baby shower at Chappy's. I was putting on make-up in the passenger seat (always, always running late) and happened to notice these gorgeous big blue eyes staring back at me in the mirror, which completely took me by surprise. I turned around to realize Buggy (also known as Bennett, Big Chunk, Chunky Monkey and B) was facing me and loving every minute! He was talking up a storm in gibberish, laughing, smiling, watching the trees and cars coming toward him and of course, we had to bust out the DVD player too. Lots going on in his first car ride facing forward, as I had images flashing through my head of my little baby who isn't so little anymore. And then it hit me, those moments that everyone tells you about. How is he 11 months old? How do I feel about this? Can't I just freeze time and keep him just the way he is? What next, he'll be driving and then graduating and then getting married....AHHHHHHH! And then I focused, gazing at Bennett as all the background noise was fading-in again, and I realized what a happy and joyous moment this was for our little family. I looked over at Jon, who was driving and occasionally glancing at Bennett in the rear-view mirror with a smile on his face , and I felt my heart flutter as I realized this is it, a moment of true happiness in parenthood, in life. I am forever and eternally grateful for God's blessings, especially my sweet baby - big boy, B.




I am hoping, but not promising, to keep this blog up and running from now on. And maybe, just maybe, I will post about the last 11 months of our lives, maybe not in words, but pictures :)

No comments:

Post a Comment